reminder to self #2: listen to silence


reminder to self #2

January '24

what does silence sound like today?

*I originally wrote this text in dutch, scroll down for the original dutch version*

my earbuds broke and I just saw an Instagram video of a boy singing the pitch of the ambient noise in a cafe.

now I am sitting on the bus and listening, the state of the bus is no different than any other time I’ve been on it. but now, I listen and suddenly, the silence amplifies. I hear everything. the noise of the heater, a high muffled beep, the quiet yet audible electric motor, the buzz of people at the front of the bus, the crumpling of a plastic bag, the cracking of knuckles, someone softly calling on loudspeaker, two brothers humming and singing to themselves, I even hear the person sitting behind me rustling his coat and breathing.

I thought I would miss my earbuds more. I can't imagine now that I thought I would be bored without them. the belief that listening to music or a podcast should fill the void or boredom no longer makes sense, in this lively bus it would rather serve to calm.

the more I listen, the louder the silence becomes.

How does silence sound to you today?


mijn oordopjes zijn stuk en ik zag net een instagram filmpje van een jongen die de pitch van de omgevingsruis in een cafe na zingt.

nu zit ik in de bus en luister, in principe is de staat van de bus niet anders dan elke andere keer dat ik in de bus zit. maar nu, ik luister en ineens wordt de stilte luider. ik hoor alles. de ruis van de verwarming, een hoge gedempte piep, de stille en toch hoorbare elektrische motor, geroezemoes van mensen vooraan de bus, het verfrommelen van een plastic zakje, het kraken van knokkels, iemand die zachtjes belt op luidspreker, twee broertjes die in zichzelf neuriën en zingen, ik hoor zelfs degene die achter mij zit aan zijn jas ritselen en ademen.

ik dacht dat ik mijn oordopjes meer zou missen. ik kan me nu niet meer voorstellen dat ik dacht dat ik me zou vervelen zonder. de overtuiging dat muziek of een podcast luisteren de leegte of verveling zou moeten opvullen klopt niet meer, in deze bruisende bus zou het eerder dienen als rust.

hoe meer ik luister, hoe luider de stilte wordt.

hoe klinkt stilte vandaag bij jou?

I'd love to recommend a book I recently read: The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. I saw it recommended somewhere online and immediately recognised the cover, I just knew it was on my mom's bookshelf. And, sure, there it was, with her name written on the first page. I read the book in one day. Short but sweet. Universally valuable, I think.

Z


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